The 25-year old singer looks back on her career in Elle’s “Women in Music” issue and has no regrets about the house she built by hand.
Indeed, her meteoric career began with rejection as a teen in Nashville, but she persevered and became one of the most successful acts in music history, largely by her own persistence and doing.
“I feel no need to burn down the house I built by hand. I can make additions to it. I can redecorate. But I built this,” she says using an analogy to explain her career.
“With 1989 [her latest album], I feel like we gave the entire metaphorical house I built a complete renovation and it made me love the house even more — but still keeping the foundation of what I’ve always been,” she tells the magazine.
“So I’m not going to sit there and say, ‘Oh, I wish I hadn’t had corkscrew-curly hair and worn cowboy boots and sundresses to awards shows when I was 17; I wish I hadn’t gone through that fairy-tale phase where I just wanted to wear princess dresses to awards shows every single time.’ Because I made those choices,” she says.
In the early days, Swift says her music was inspired by what she thought love was about.
“I’d never been in a relationship when I wrote my first couple of albums, so these were all projections of what I thought they might be like. They were based on movies and books and songs and literature that tell us that a relationship is the most magical thing that can ever happen to you. And then once I fell in love, or thought I was in love, and then experienced disappointment or it just not working out a few times, I realized there’s this idea of happily ever after which in real life doesn’t happen. There’s no riding off into the sunset, because the camera always keeps rolling in real life.”
Swift rode through more than her share of relationships before coming to that conclusion. They included Joe Jonas, Taylor Lautner, John Mayer, Jake Gyllenhaal, Connor Kennedy and One Direction bad boy Harry Styles.
Her relationship with Styles ended badly in January 2013 after a whirlwind romance and reportedly formed the basis for her song “Clean,” on her 1989 album. She says the track reflected ““where I ended up mentally.”
“‘Clean’ I wrote as I was walking out of Liberty in London. Someone I used to date — it hit me that I’d been in the same city as him for two weeks and I hadn’t thought about it. When it did hit me, it was like, ‘Oh, I hope he’s doing well.’ And nothing else. And you know how it is when you’re going through heartbreak. A heartbroken person is unlike any other person. Their time moves at a completely different pace than ours. It’s this mental, physical, emotional ache and feeling so conflicted. Nothing distracts you from it. Then time passes, and the more you live your life and create new habits, you get used to not having a text message every morning saying, ‘Hello, beautiful. Good morning.’ You get used to not calling someone at night to tell them how your day was.”
Swift says she’s learned to cope by replacing old habits with new habits “like texting your friends in a group chat all day and planning fun dinner parties and going out on adventures with your girlfriends.”
“Now I have more of a grasp on the fact that when you’re in a state of infatuation and you think everything that person does is perfect, it then — if you’re lucky — morphs into a real relationship when you see that that person is not in fact perfect, but you still want to see them every day,” she says.
For more from Swift check out Elle magazine online. It hit’s newsstands on May 19. Also, check out Taylor’s very sexy photos. She definitely looks more mature and wizened.
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