Cara Delevingne is a conflagration of contradictions. The “Suicide Squad” actress is a daughter of privilege who recoils at elitism; a stunning beauty who lusts for women and a tortured soul who battles bouts of depression. Do you love her yet?

If not, you will soon, once you get to know her, although not many in America do.

Three years ago, Delevingne was hailed in Great Britain as the heiress to Kate Moss’s crown. She was England’s hottest young model and a staple of London’s tabloids. Not only because of her beauty, but also because of her impish behavior and Patrician roots.

She’s the granddaughter of Sir Jocelyn Stevens, who once ruled over all of England’s historic monuments as the chairman of English Heritage, which is short for Historic Buildings and Monuments Commission for England.

Stevens’ daughter, Pandora, married wealthy real estate developer Charles Delevingne and had four children. Cara is the youngest.

Older sister Poppy Delevingne is also a well known UK model. But Cara wanted more than endless parties, fashion shoots and tabloid headlines. She wanted to be taken seriously on her own terms.

So she ditched her modeling career for acting and has been trying to explain herself ever since.

“There are some girls who are beautiful all the time, that’s just who they are. I’m not. I’m a weirdo, I’m a goofball,” she tells the UK edition of Esquire magazine in a revealing new interview.

She says she feels like a “little Gremlin” and would be a monkey if she were an animal. She’s known in modeling circles for taking goofy selfies, as if she were rebelling against own beauty.

Chanel fashion director Karl Lagerfeld calls her “the Charlie Chaplin” of fashion–adorable, funny and sad, the magazine notes.

The sadness stems from her privileged but painful childhood; her tortured teenage years; her swift and steep ascent in fashion and her disillusionment” with the business, where the modus operandi(a la Kate Moss) is “Never explain, never complain.”

In contrast her motto is: “Embrace your weirdness.”

Cara acknowledges she is sweet, vulnerable and flawed. But she wouldn’t want it any other way. In the age of the celebrity selfie, she’s the polar opposite of Kim Kardashian’s manicured perfection.

She’s unfiltered.

“The fashion industry, is about surface, it’s not about what’s underneath, it’s not about being yourself. You don’t feel you matter as a person. You feel like it’s just about your looks — and it is. I mean, on a list of things that are important to me, clothes are pretty low down. I’ve never had that many designer clothes. “I would never spend a lot of money on one thing. I just think that’s ridiculous. Like, I’d rather spend less money and still be just as comfortable.”

Her attitude is a contradiction in itself. Her public image is synonymous with high fashion and high-flying celebrity friends. She reps for Bulgari, Chanel and other high-end brands like Tag Heuer, Tom Ford, Rimmel, Burberry, Fendi and La Perla lingerie.

She explains:

“Modelling is not something I love. It always felt like a job. It was never a passion. It was more like a part I played. There are some girls who are beautiful all the time, that’s just who they are. I’m not. I’m a weirdo, I’m a goofball. I just don’t ever feel like I look that pretty. And so when I do all the posing, that just feels so stupid to me.”

Acting is her passion now. Her career is beginning to take off.

Cara said she hopes to follow in the footsteps of actress Charlize Theron, who also started her professional career as a model.

She made her movie debut with a cameo role in the 2012 period piece “Anna Karenina.”

Since then, Cara has steadily built her film resume.

She landed the lead role in last year’s mystery comedy-drama “Paper Towns.” The film received middling reviews, but was a box office success with an $81 million worldwide gross against a $12 million production budget.

After another cameo role as a mermaid in the action-adventure family film “Pan,” Cara scored five movie roles this year, including June Moon, aka Enchantress, in “Suicide Squad.”

“I just remember being like, ‘This is insane. People need to lighten up. We’re not fucking changing the world. I’m sorry. So everyone should stop taking themselves so fucking seriously and just laugh at it all.’”

Do you love her now?

Check out her photos. For more from her interview check out Esquire UK online.