Kristen Stewart has been called aloof, detached and even snobby in personal appearances and television interviews. But the problem isn’t arrogance, it’s awkwardness.
“I have an embarrassing inability, seriously, of summoning fake energy,” she says in a new interview.
“I’m just not very good on TV, and it’s not my main goal in life to get good at it,” she tells Marie Claire.
Stewart was thrust into the spot light by her role as Bella Swan in the “Twilight Saga” movies. As lead actress, she was required to make endless public appearances.
My Heart Is A Wiffle Ball/Freedom Pole
By Kristen Stewart
“I reared digital moonlight/
You read its clock, scrawled neon across that black/
Kismetly … ubiquitously crest fallen/
Thrown down to strafe your foothills/
…I’ll suck the bones pretty.
Your nature perforated the abrasive organ pumps/
Spray painted everything known to man/
Stream rushed through and all out into/
Something Whilst the crackling stare down sun snuck/
Through our windows boarded up/
He hit your flint face and it sparked.
And I bellowed and you parked/
We reached Marfa/
One honest day up on this freedom pole/
Devils not done digging/
He’s speaking in tongues all along the pan handle/
And this pining erosion is getting dust in/
And I’m drunk on your morsels/
And so I look down the line/
Your every twitch hand drum salute/
While her character’s romance with vampire Edward Cullen, played by then-boyfriend Robert Pattinson endeared her to fans, she quickly gained a reputation for being difficult off-screen.
“People are like, ‘She just can’t handle–for lack of a better word–the spotlight.’ “No, actually, I can’t,” she confesses. “And that is totally who I am.”
She draws a distinction between appearing in front of a camera. “I love being an actor,” she says. “I’m kind of an extremist, I don’t want to be working unless I’m bleeding it.”
“But I’m the last person to want to have a birthday party,” she says.
“I don’t try to force it or turn it into something else or fabricate this personality, so I totally agree when people say I’m, like, the most awkward person.”
She’s totally focused on her career and avoids the Hollywood fast lane. She passes on the drugs and party scene because she’s a “control freak.”
But her career in Hollywood didn’t come easy, even though she had show-biz parents.
“I auditioned for a year before I got anything, and I told my mom I was kind of over it,” she recalls.
“I was like, ‘I don’t want to make you drive around L.A. anymore. If it’s not happening, it’s not worth it.’ They thought I looked like a boy.
“I didn’t think it was going to pan out, and then literally that day, I got ‘The Safety of Objects,’ which was my first movie,” she says.
The magazine hits newsstands today, Feb 11.
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